I don’t know where my parade walked off to, but it’s back! No, I didn’t catch NaNoWriMo this time and no, I haven’t been working on my passion project, but I found inspiration where I least expected. And I’m back!
To be fair, I haven’t exactly been doing nothing either. I’ve embarked on a new business which involves a lot of content writing and I picked up a job managing social media for a friend’s company. So yes! I have been writing. Just not my creative project (the one that used to wake me up with rainbows and good coffee).
I felt so bad about abandoning it that I even thought about using NaNoWriMo to complete a bunch of posts for my new business, but came up with the idea too late to feel like it was worth it. Ah! Maybe next time. Or even better, maybe next time I can put my attention on the place where my heart once was! But until then, it’s a-OK.
Don’t get me wrong, I was frustrated with myself for not getting “it” together enough to do NaNo, but there’s only so much resisting one can do before they just snap! Somewhere around week three I surrendered. Just let. it. all. go. Ahhhhh….
I let go so much so that I forgot about my poor characters. Days have passed in the past few weeks where I don’t think of them at all. I began to think I must have fallen out of love with these guys. Or maybe they are having an affair with another creative Soul somewhere out there! All I know is that we haven’t been keeping each other company.
As deeply as the passion was once there, it was just as deeply gone. And I do mean GONE!
So this last week I decided to start keeping a journal again, even just to write my woes about falling out of love with my story, my characters, my passion project. (Yes, even the journal took a hike a couple of months ago.)
Nothing felt different for the first few days, but soon enough I noticed that I felt lighter inside, more receptive. Yes, more receptive is the right way to say this. (There is a point to those morning pages that Julia Cameron teaches in The Artist’s Way.)
This lightness continued.
And last night I found myself online, looking for inspirational quotes about art. This one from Marc Chagall caught my eye:
In the arts, as in life, everything is possible provided it is based on love. (Marc Chagall)
And then another:
Love and fantasy go hand in hand. (Marc Chagall)
And yet another:
In our life there is a single color, as on an artist’s palette, which provides the meaning of life and art. It is the color of love. (Marc Chagall)
I read so many and felt so uplifted that it dawned on me — I haven’t refilled the tank in a while. I’ve been expending so much energy on so many different projects (and I do enjoy them all!), but I haven’t stopped in a while to step outside in the sun, read inspiring quotes that make me want to dance and write and journey in my imagination.
So today I decided to find all of my favorite writing songs on Youtube and make a playlist. I also discovered quite a few new ones. Just listening to these started to bring back some of the love for my project. I actually thought about the characters for the first time in a long while.
What I’ve realized is that love is all, but it’s not just the love for the project that sustains it. It’s the love I take in and give out that propels it forward and sustains it. And this comes in many shapes and forms! Through taking time to practice yoga, or look up quotes of make a new playlist.
All in all, I can see now that I just got out of balance! I stopped filling up with the simple things I love to do.
So it has been a journey, and now that I’ve turned over a new leaf, I plan to be posting a lot more often.
If you want to hear my new writing playlist you can check it out here:
That’s all for now! If you want to share anything about your adventures with NaNo or recommend music for this playlist, drop a line in the comments! I’d love to hear all about it!